Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Life as I Know it

Hello, Blog. My name is Lisa, and once upon a time, we were good friends. Please don't feel neglected. I have been at a loss for words. Please be my friend as I struggle back to life via this keyboard.

Please keep in mind that this blog post will be deeply personal, and extremely selfish. But, it IS my blog. So I will be unapologeticly selfish.

I have been under the impression recently that I should have it all figured out. I am 23 years old, have been living on my own for 4+ years, married, financially independent. I should know what I am doing, where I am headed, and when I will get there. I should be secure enough with myself that when people wrong me, I am fine. Things should roll off my back. When I am treated unfairly, I should remember that I have an incredible mom, dad, brothers. A husband who will do ANYTHING if it means my happiness. Extended family who will, and who have, dropped everything to give me a call. Because those are the things that matter. My nephew who is the most studly of all 2 year olds. HE matters. Those other people? Not so much. I should know that. I shouldn't worry about other things.

But I do.

And you know what I am learning? That it's okay. It's okay to occasionally handle situations wrong. It's okay to not know what to say all the time, and to take a few minutes to process information. And it's okay to be offended when people who should care about you, don't care. And, for me, above all else, it's okay to cry. It's okay to not have it all together. You know why? Because I have an incredible mom, dad and brothers. A husband who will do ANYTHING if it means my happiness. Extended family who will, and who have, dropped everything to give me a call. And for that studly little nephew, and his equally precious little sister who is having her last few moments with Heavenly Father before honoring us with her presence. I am so blessed. I am on this journey of self discovery, of learning who I am, what I like to do (went to yoga tonight... and LOVED it!! Who would have thought??), what makes me happy. And I am learning to act on these things. I am learning to be true to myself.

Am I ahead of the game, am I trailing behind, while others are already soaring through the finish line? Does it matter? Not to me. I am on my own journey, my own path. And as far as I am concerned, I am right on schedule.

Monday, February 1, 2010

2 years (and then some)

Seeing as its been an awfully long time since I posted an actual post, we have a lot to catch up on. We moved, lost access to the world wide web with said move, played all summer, enjoyed Logan in the fall, spent Turkey Day with Christian's family, travelled far and wide (California) to celebrate the birth of our Savior, spent loads of time with family and friends, and have spent January detesting the snow with every fiber of my being. Fun recap, huh? Well, during afore mentioned celebration of Christ, my lovely parents loaned us their monitor, so we could rig up a computer to use. We tapped into some Internet... and wa-la! We have communication with the "dear void" (name that movie). Have we been missing anything?

"Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life - well, valuable, but small - and sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around? I don't really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So good night, dear void." (okay, if you don't know the movie now, we shouldn't be friends. Just sayin')

January also marked year 2 of our eternal union. Anyone who knows me knows that any cause for celebration is good enough for me. Let's party! So, in honor of the milestone, we went out on town. (Keep in mind, said town is Logan... not too many options.) We went to dinner (thank you, gift cards!!), then to the movies (again, thank you, gift cards!!!) to see Avatar. From a completely anti sci-fi point-of-view, and from a lover of romantic comedies near and far, the movie was pretty good.

Let me say this, though. When you spend 2+ hours engrossed in a 3 D rain forest, and come out for 6+ inches of snow, its a tough reality. Sadly, the following picture is the only one that was taken of the whole night. Enjoy.

i hate winter. But I love my husband. HAPPY 2 YEARS!

p.s. and a happy return to blogging :)

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Hello, 2010!!

This is a quickie, just to let the blogging world (Hi, Mom! Hi Hannah! Think that's it...) know that we are live here in Logan! Found some Internet to tap into for now. Once we upload some pics, we will be blogging fools, once more. :)