Wednesday, August 27, 2008


Well, here I sit, in Provo, on the eve before the eve of my departure. I have been babysitting my most wonderful nephew, who, by the way, is the most perfect thing on the face of this earth. Seriously.
I have been "single" again this past week, (meaning Christian has been in Logan, and I am currently flying solo) and I have realized a bit about myself. I stress. I worry. I let little things get to me. I feel like this past few days has been one chaotic event, extending over 62 hours. I need to clean our apartment, get my hair cut, shower, return things at Target, go to work, shower, drop off things to a friends house, get Christian his wallet, and SHOWER. To name a few. As I was running errands for work, Christian happened to call me. I was nicely exclaiming things that needed to be done, and how over whelmed I was; he was just nicely listening, and just saying, "I love you." And I thought of something. He keeps me balanced. He keeps me leveled. And I do the same for him. He registers for classes now. He shows up to places on time (mostly). He calls when he is going to be late. I stop and admire sunflowers, even when I need to be doing other things. I am more patient with people.
There is my sappy "I miss my husband, and can't wait to be with him again" post.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

i LOVE my family.

The past few days have been a little rough going, and I just need to give a little shout-out to my family of lifesavers. Any situation that arises, I know I have a team of supporters there to rally around me and make me feel like a million bucks. Ever since I can remember, all I had to do was say the word, and I have a flood of phone calls and emails and voice mails and cards helping me get through any tough time, or to tell me that I had done a great job. I remember a day that I had had a disagreement with a boyfriend, and I was telling my mom about it. Not five minutes later, my brother had called me and invited me to have a bbq with him and Hannah, and they just spent the next 5 hours telling me how wonderful I am. I am terrified that now I will be moving even further from them, and that those nights will become less frequent, and more far between.
They really are the best. I can only hope that I can be that kind of friend and support to them.
Christian is so lucky to have married into the most wonderful family on this side of the moon. I may be a little biased, though.

And it wouldn't be complete without a tribute to my "new" family, who has welcomed me in with open arms. I have become such great friends with the girls, and have such a great time with them. How many could be boring fridays have been spent at the dollar theaters, giggling the afternoon away at the latest and greatest new chick flick? And Ethan, of course, has been my hero. He is the greatest brother in law ever. And, I like to think, my friend too. I have learned so much since joining th family, from What Not to Wear to where to put the silverware! Its been a wild ride, but we will miss you guys so much!

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Movin' on Up!

Ever have those moments where you realize how much your life is changing and yet feel totally unprepared for it? Yeah? Me too. Like right now. Christian has been accepted to Utah State University, which is SO great! I am so proud of him. Want to know where it is located? Logan. 100 miles NORTH of where we are now. Negative 659,354 degrees in the winter. Seriously. There is no Target in the general area. General area being within like 50 miles. I have quit my job (which is really a good thing) and am actively seeking a new one up there. Big change. I have had this job for about 2 years, and have grown accustomed to the day to day ins and outs of a slow, small business office. I interviewed for a position yesterday that I feel is WAY out of my comfort zone, and to be honest, don't feel real great about. But hey, girl's gotta work. My wonderful and talented hubby has landed the ideal job for himself at a bike shop in Logan, real close to the school. Doing what he loves, building bikes. We are trying to sell a car, a bike, a couch, our washer/dryer, etc. I just feel so OVERWHELMED. which, to be honest, isn't real great for me. I have been going to physical therapy for the past month or so to help my back, but that has taken a "back" seat to the stresses of life. So I as I sit here, typing away on the trusty ol' work computer, I am hopped up on Ibuprofen and dreading my visit to pt today to have her drill me on my lack on dedication. I know, I know. Really.
Tonight, I am hoping for a little R and R with my husband, a chance to unwind and remember why life is changing and how great it will be to go through it all with the man that I love now, and forever.
P.S. I can't wait to visit California. Really. I need it.

Friday, August 1, 2008

Mamma Mia!

I'm a day late, but I am within the week, so I think I'm still okay.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I (we) love you sooo much and are so grateful for all you do. I hope you get to celebrate sometime with Dad this weekend, and that you guys have lots of fun. You deserve it!

P.S. I would have included a picture, but Christian has the wedding cd, so I don't have any here at work.

P.P.S. When are you coming out to visit again?! I miss you already.