Random Thoughts of the New Mommy

The idea of thoughts swirling in your head, never making it to paper (keyboard)- I think THAT is the act of motherhood. Which is a shame, since loving on Levi has opened up an new part of my brain that taps into my heart like never before. And I'm also exhausted. Happily exhausted.


 - Poop schedules run this town. Especially post solid food. Has he recently? How much? Consistency? Did he seem uncomfortable? It has actually become dinnertime conversation, which is weird. And gross.


 - I have never wanted a smile from another human being so badly. I will do really embarrassing things for a smile.


 -Being a Momma is all about sacrifice. But the tender mercy is that it REALLY doesn't feel like sacrifice. In retrospect- yeah, probably. My body. Naps. A clean house. A haircut. None of it's happening. But snuggling at 4 am? It doesn't seem like I am giving up anything. It seems like exactly what I should be doing.

 -Car seats are really heavy. Have women really been lifting these things forever?? Whoa.


 - I drive like a maniac when I am rushing to get home to Levi. Like a bat outta hell.


 -I was so scared that I wouldn't really like Levi. I mean, I knew I'd love him. But I'm not really a "kid" person. I was so grateful that I would be going back to work part time. And then- he was here, and I haven't stopped smooching his round bald head, and telling him how perfect he is since. I spend my days at work wishing I were home.


I had other thoughts. 4am thoughts- eloquent and meaningful. They have escaped me. I guess it comes down to this. As a new Mommy, I am so grateful to have my son. I am grateful for his spirit, and for the tender moments we have together. The sweet prayers that I say over him as I rock him to sleep, conversations with our Heavenly Father. I am grateful, blessed, and loved.

Life 2.0

That's really what life with Levi feels like- Life 2.0. Way, way better than it ever was before. Humor me as I stroll via photos through what has been the fastest and best 6 months of my entire life.

One of the first days home. He was still all furry and yellow and loose skin and tiny and wonderful. He is still wonderful. Everything else- not so much.

He was yellow, so we did a bit of sun bathing. He would fall asleep immediately as soon as he was in the sun.

These are his "Elton John" jammies. Fluffy with big stars. Oh my word- he was snuggly in these.

I guess- I just really really love him.

The cutest outfit, compliments of my Aunt Ellen. She has impeccable taste.

One of his first smiles.

Hiking adventures with Dad. All of his adventure gear was a little big, so we improvised.

4th of July.

The cubbiest, baldest superhero ever. Super power? Melting hearts. (I know- I'm a square.)

OHMYGOSH!

His perfected smile.

Hanging out with Mom.

Hanging out with Dad.

Playing in the backyard.

Stud-freaking-muffin.

Post blowout.

I may not look put together every day- but Levi does!

The sweetest boy in the whole world.

Bear Lake, 2014. Nap time with Dad.

Swimming with Mom.

Love this little chunk.

Aunt Emma got the stuffed alligator for Levi. He loves stuffed animals!

BAby food!!

Fall with Momma.

What I walk into after nap time. Happy, playful Levi!

Post run sweaty selfie!

Levi was watching our neighbor Lucy- he loves our neighbor friends!

Up at Snowbird.

The reason that every day is TRULY- better than the last.